As I do every morning while holding my first cup of coffee, I looked outside the window above the kitchen sink and stared toward the garden. At first glance, it looked dead and lifeless. There was no vibrancy to the landscape. No color and no beauty. A crisp, fresh frost covered the brown grass. I couldn’t help but notice how it mirrored the palette of grief. Just like the winter garden, grief can look and feel so empty, lonely, cold and forlorn.
But then as I took another sip from my hot mug I noticed something new. The birds outside my kitchen window were full of excitement; as if they were in on a secret we don’t yet know or believe. I saw more than winter’s sparrows and cardinals. Today I noticed the finches and robins. They were flitting around from tree to fence post with a palpable anticipation under their wings. I felt their happiness as they chirped a joyful song that didn’t match their setting.
I was reminded in that early morning moment that although my eyes could only see evidence of a cold, dank and depressed future, the birds have faith in what’s yet to come. They are able to look beyond current evidence and joyfully expect what can’t be seen. They do more than hope, they believe…they trust…they know!
That’s not always how it is for us. When our grief has overtaken our ability to smile, to hope, to anticipate, the only evidence we can SEE has us believing we will never be ok again. This must be how it will always look and feel. This is our life now, we tell ourselves. We look around and feel unable. We believe we will never be able to experience joy again, never be excited about anything again, and never feel alive again.
But Spring is coming. The birds believe it. They can’t see the roots being fed under the surface or the strengthening that’s happening where the eye can’t see, and yet they know better days are ahead. They can’t see the bulbs preparing to burst through the soil with new, colorful and vibrant life. They don’t have evidence the trees are organizing a symphony of fragrant blooms. And yet, they believe things will change. They believe it so much they can’t help but sing melodic applause for the future.
I want to be like those birds. I want the kind of faith they have. I want to boldly reject all visual evidence of hopelessness and instead trust so confidently in the beauty that’s around the corner that I can’t stop myself from singing praise for all to hear!
I believe God wants us to know this too. I believe He wanted me to observe the bird’s glory amidst their dull and bleak backdrop. It was a reminder I needed this morning. I was given a Romans 8:18 kind of moment to rekindle a new hope for all the days ahead.
~Romans 8: 18
“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.”
I put on my heavy winter coat and walked outside to inspect my winter garden more closely. At first it seemed the same as it had from my kitchen window; DEAD.
Tears reading this, Jodi! Spring is coming! Hope it! Believe it!
Today’s post is especially beautiful, Jodi. Your words on the paper nearly a song in themselves. We do grieve, but if we let Hope rise within us, we can grieve differently. Spring is coming, indeed. ❤️
I love this post! I really never thought about grief and the seasons in this way.
Love this. Since I live in Texas, I am already seeing many beautiful signs of spring blooming! I never really thought about comparing grief to the seasons in this way.
I needed this today – it’s been 7 months since my dear wife Carol went to heaven. There are days when I just feel hopeless. Your post lifted my spirit – and with the passage from I Thessalonians 4 to back up your observations, I know that God’s Mighty Word will uphold us and keep us strong.
Thank you, Jodi.
Jodi thank you so much for this as I Sit here reading this knowing that tomorrow I will go where only a place my husband and I shared…The place we got married and have our memories that was just “Our place” this place is the most special to me and I am going there to visit our friends and share this part of my life with my grown daughter who never knew of such a place for us ..so even though I have bittersweet thoughts of going there I appreciate this more than u will know
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I could use some more throttle therapy. It’s only the beginning of March. Slow your roll on spring! 😉 luvya
A beautiful comfort to me! God has blessed you with great insight. Thanynyou gor using it to encourage others .
Such lovely words and comparison. Faith is putting our hope in the unseen. {{HUGS}} to each one of us on this journey through grief.
Jodi,
Your post was so special, You gave us alot of food for thought! I loved how you related to your garden and the birds.
You truly have a gift! Thanks for sharing with all of us! Have a wonderful weekend! Thinking of you!
Love, Karen
This. It just left me in tears and longing to feel hope again. I really believe it will come. It is a hard journey. Thank you for always pointing us to the promises of God in the midst of our gardens which appear dead.
Much love to you, my friend.
Thanks so much, Pech!