A year ago today I announced my website was coming soon. It wasn’t up and running yet, but I was confident enough to proclaim it was on the way. That. Is. NUTS! You know I really had no idea what I was doing, right? But I had a crazy idea on my heart. The details were not there, but the general concept was all I could think about. Each night I went to bed thinking about it. I woke up every morning still thinking about it. Sometimes I even woke up in the middle of the night with ideas. I told all of my friends what I thought I was going to do. They were supportive, but I’m quite sure they maybe thought it was a phase of grief. I’m also pretty sure I thought that at times. I still wonder it occasionally.
This morning when I saw the Facebook “On This Day” memory, it shocked me. I was in awe. I realized how far God has carried me, and I was a little proud of myself because I’ve come along way in my grief. A crazy idea has so far developed into not only an outlet for my heart, but I sense it’s becoming an actual community of people who understand one another. I’ve watched you comment with extra grace. I’ve noticed how you’ve cared for one another. You’re “strangers” who feel like understanding friends to not only me, but to one another. Are you guys feeling that too? Or is it just me?
Today has taught me the importance of pausing every now and then to look back, not on our loss, but on our gains. I know often it feels like progress is slow. We still cry, we still feel lonely sometimes, and we’re still grieving. But would you look at how far you’ve come? It’s so good to remind ourselves of the things we’ve managed to live through.
Maybe some of you are brand-new with your grief. Take note of every detail you accomplish. Maybe today it’s just eating a meal or showering. But pay attention because there will be evidence that you’re indeed doing great. (Except for when you’re not – seems that’s just part of it).
If you’re farther along in your grief, there are likely more progress moments on your timeline. Take a minute and reflect on those. You’ve done it! You’re still doing it! Thank God for carrying you through and keep trudging ahead. There are new things you’ll conquer this month. You’re doing it! I’m proud of you. I’m proud of all of us. We are going to make it….with some extra grace required, of course.